Catching up

Last night, I received a letter from someone who had discovered my blog and wanted to encourage me. I was on my way to bed when I saw it and I walked around the house, reading this letter while I contemplated this person, their experiences, and my own experiences. I was grateful that this person reached out and it meant a lot to me to read.

It made me realize that I haven’t been on here very much. I’m being a horrible steward of my money, paying for a URL and barely using it. It feels important to acknowledge that.

While I’m acknowledging the dumpster fire my cash is flowing into, I should also acknowledge the amount of things that have changed in my life since I started this blog. What’s more, my life has changed immensely in just the few months since I last wrote. (This is where you point out that it’s actually been a year.)

I believe my last post was a letter to a friend who had ghosted me. She ended up reading my letter, we talked, and we are friends again. I had accidentally hurt her by making her feel like I wasn’t listening. I heard her mention having chest pain and the nurse in me (oh, yeah, I’m a nurse now) was telling her to get to a hospital. She said it was just anxiety and I told her not to take that chance but I should have listened better. Anyhow, I digress.

While she and I were making up, another friend reached out to me and wanted to spend some time together. Nursing school has made me scarce among my friends and family. I hadn’t been able to spend time with her more than a few times since school started. However, summer was starting and she wanted to get together. I told her that, at the time, I couldn’t get together because I was with another friend and didn’t know how long it would take. She ghosted me as well. I find it odd that I somehow ended up exchanging one friend for another.

I also got my LPN and have been working towards my RN. I’ve almost made it, guys. I have to redo the semester, though, which sucks.

All this to say that we are not the ones in control of our lives. We may think that we are but the amount of control we actually have is minimal at best.

I plan on taking this more seriously and writing more often for the < 5 of you who read my words. Lean in closer now. Are you listening? I have so many things to tell you.

Stay tuned.